best friend

I haven't had one in years. Probably 'cause I was feeling miserable for most of my high school life, but meh... past is past. :P

So, I've only had close friends the entire duration of my high school life, but none of them were as close to me as my best friend in elementary. To be completely honest, I can't even remember how close we were, but you know... It kind of feels different. If there is one person in high school that I could say I've been the closest with, it's Wendi. She never judged me. She knew me. Until now, she still does.

She's the only person who knows me inside and out. People say I'm transparent. Well, I am, in a sense. I guess that's why people always believe that they know me even if they actually don't. They may know my feelings, they may know how I act, they may know what I do and say... but those don't really matter, don't they? During my high school life, I had problems with school, people in school, and my family. And as far as I know, only Wendi knows everything that happened back then. I can run to her, without even saying a thing, and she'll know what to do. But I still wasn't able to call her my "best friend". She became my "mommy", instead. She knows me. Heck, we even knew each other before she arrived in Pisay. I guess that's why we already have this bond beforehand. I guess that's why I trust her so much. And for this, I only have Ate Lei to thank for introducing me to her, even though it was only a virtual meeting.

In college, I met Issa. She was my OrSem 2010 partner. I'm not exactly sure how, but I think we got seated next to each other in the first Group Dynamics (GD) where we introduced each other, or something. I was eager to make friends back then. I wanted a fresh start. If I wasn't mistaken, I kept on asking people what school they came from, knowing that most, if not all of them, would have come from a school in Metro Manila. From there, I'd ask them if they know some of the people I met from summer camp that studied in their respective schools. Issa was the only Science-High-School person I met that I didn't have a "friend-in-common". But surprisingly, I got to talk to her more, even if my icebreaker question failed. We continued to be close, until summer sem, that is.

We had different classes back then. We weren't classmates in anything. We also got a bit distant. If I remember correctly, we weren't able to talk about anything during summer sem. Start of the second year, first sem wasn't any different, either. To be honest, I felt a bit lost. I was kind of lucky that Bea and Christine were there. I was also thankful that I was at least able to bond with them (+ kuya Josh) by volunteering for OrSem 2011. I wasn't exactly prepared to be "out-of-place" after just one summer semester. I thank God for them for taking me under their wing. Or else I would have been Physics group mates with people I'm not really familiar with. So yeah.

I guess you can say that it was "Divine Intervention" how we got in touch with each other again. I was struggling with my subjects. She tells me she was kind of struggling, too. By struggling, I meant she was worried about her scholarship. Everyone knows she did better than me, anyway. :P So, back to the story. I invited her over to have a sleepover study session (remnants of those were the random blog posts that were posted in this blog).

Obviously, we did more than studying. We got to talk, a lot. We also got to bond, a lot. It reminded me of how I missed her, how I loved summer sem because it was easy and how I hated it because we got distant. Writing this right now reminds me of how I miss her now, and why I'm doing this because I got touched by her posts. I'm glad because that happened, and I thank God for it. It was through those sleepover study sessions why got close again, and why we are closer now, more than ever. If it wasn't for those, we might have remained distant and she probably wouldn't be my roomie.

I want to call her my best friend. That's why I made this post. But writing this made me realize she's more than that. For me, she isn't a friend. She's family. I used to tell her that she's my "soul sister" for fun, but I do realize now that it's a more fitting term than "best friend". It's not only because of fun that i call her my "sister". It's because she is.

My search for a best friend ends here. It doesn't matter how I call them, how I categorize them. I only need two categories: friends and family. And I'm happy the way it is right now, because even though we're not blood-related, I have two people I really do treasure and do consider as part of my family. <3