so this is what they meant.

I feel really really bad right now.

I never really thought that I'd feel bitter even after being rejected. I know that there are a lot of people more capable for the job, but did they really have to slap that on my face?

They didn't even ask what my plans are, what I meant by "trying a different approach".

They didn't even hear me out before they rejected me. I feel so bad right now.

I loved my org because it made me feel at home. I've been trying to find people who accepted me for who I am for the last 6 years and I found it in my org... or at least, I used to think I did.

I'm not depressed because I was rejected. I'm used to that. It's just that I never thought that my org could be so... mean.